Here's to letting go of everything I ever wanted.

This is for every person who has held hope in finding love, and holding on to one person for too long even after all the heartbreak; hoping that there will come a time when that person could realize how much you want to love them and give that to you in return.

But I say to you, fuck it. Seriously.

I can't even begin to explain how much hope I kept in the back of my mind for one person, for way too long. I've never fallen inlove, but he was the closest thing to it. Everytime he came around, I felt more alive than ever. And I can't even remember how many nights of conversations I've poured my heart for him. I know, and he knows that no other girl could care for him as much I ever will. Pretty much. Funny thing is, as much as I wanted it, being together was never on the list for him. Nonetheless, there was (stupid) me holding on to hope in the back of my mind, that one day he'll wake up and give me the same kind of attention I give him.

But here's to realizing for the last time that too much time has been wasted and accepting it completely. And here's me waking up to the day that I'll let go of everything that ever had to do with him. Hell, here's to letting go of ever trying to find something out there. I don't want any of it anymore.

Here's to feeling so low, you don't want to feel anything anymore.